March 15, 2014

What makes me happy...




Waking up to the sound of waves crashing 




Yoga on the beach at sunrise




Enjoying a cup of French Vanilla Dunkin Donuts coffee without interruptions





Not worrying about what bills need to be paid or how I'm going to pay them 





Not having to deal with the drama that others try to put on you




Being behind the wheel of a Corvette Stingray




Curling up with a good book




Bring around people that are just as weird as me








These are just a few things that make me happy. What makes you happy??










December 12, 2013

Letting Go and Burning Bridges




In my post Finding My Inner Peace, I spoke of my struggle and how I am healing and learning how to be happy. This post is an update to that one...


As I stated in Finding My Inner Peace, I "cleaned house" and cut some toxic people from my life. During this process I analyzed everyone in my life. During my research I discovered an article on Narcissistic Mothers and it described my childhood completely... I grew up with an Narcissistic "Engulfing Mother"! All of a sudden everything made sense!! There was a reason I made the bad choices I did. There was a reason I ended up in an abusive relationship with a man with Narcissistic Personality Disorder. 

Now that I know what the root of my issues is, I needed to change it. The cycle is stopping with me...it will not continue! I needed to learn how to change myself so that this viscous cycle stopped. In order to change and grow I had to come to terms with what I had discovered. At first I tried to talk to her about it but every conversation ended up with her either blaming me for everything or trying to make me feel guilty. After trying this for a few months I knew it was time to let go. I had to let go of the pain, the anger, the things that were said to/about me....I just had to let go of everything...including my mother. So in September I completely cut my mother out of my life. Of course she is blaming others for this decision but the decision was all mine. She will never take responsibility for anything. It will always be someone else's fault and therefore I can not continue to deal with it. This has been one of the hardest things I have ever done. I would love to have a mother that was understanding...one that accepted me for me but that just isn't my reality and I will no longer put myself in a toxic situation. 

After I cut her out of my life she did the unthinkable...she contacted my abuser. She sided with the man that physically, mentally, and emotionally abused me. When I discovered this, I knew there was no going back. There is no way that this relationship can ever be reconciled. The fact that she couldn't come see me when he beat the shit out of me but decided to become friends with him now spoke VOLUMES about her! There in NOTHING that she could ever say or do that will undo this. Actions speak louder than words and her actions said it all. 

I have gone through a lot of emotions the last few months. At times I'm sad...sad that I don't have a mother that I can talk to. Then at other times I'm angry...angry because of the things I went through as a child...angry because I didn't learn about this before now...and just plain angry. And right when I seem to be at peace a package shows up on my door step or I get an email (I blocked her on my phone so she can not contact me). I send the packages back and delete the emails. I just can not do it anymore. I can not put myself or my daughters in this toxic situation. 

This has been very hard but I know I will get through it. I know that I will be a better and a stronger person for this. I also know that I will be a better mother because of it. I know that I will make sure that I do not repeat my mother's actions with my children.

The healing process that I have been going through for a while has been very trying and very painful but I refuse to give up. I know that one day I will find my inner peace. I will be to the point where no one can steal my happiness. Until then, I'll just take it one day at a time and remember to just breathe


For more information on Narcissistic Personality Disorder visit these sites:

Daughters of Narcissistic Mothers
Light, Life, Love, & Laughter After NPD Abuse
Respite from Sociopathic Behavior
Story of a Sociopath 



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November 26, 2013

Always on my grind....

Anyone that knows me knows that I'm always looking for new opportunities and always on my grind lol. Below are a couple of my projects....



Jewelry in Candles


I don't normally do the sales thing but I love these candles. They are great gifts and always exciting when you find the jewelry inside. They are all natural soy candles that come in a over 100 scents. They are also made here in the USA...in Kentucky to be exact. The jewelry inside can be a ring, necklace, pendant, anklet, or bracelet. The value of the jewelry can range from $10 to thousands of dollars!!! You will discover jewelry ranging from silver plated or gold plated jewelry some with stones made from cubic zirconia or other materials. As the value of the jewelry you discover increases you will find titanium jewelry, solid sterling silver, solid yellow gold and solid white gold and may include real diamonds, rubies or other precious jewels.

To learn more about Jewelry in Candles visit my rep website: www.jewelryincandles.com/store/angela_mc

To stay up to date on my giveaways and offers, like my Facebook page: 
Jewelry In Candles Rep Angela Mc

If you want to become a rep just click the "become a rep" button on my website (www.jewelryincandles.com/store/angela_mc) and sign up.





Mariposa Fashions




Something else I have been working on is Mariposa Fashions. Most of the things I have up on my Facebook page now are cut up shirts but I also make skirts, dresses, and tutus. I also have some jewelry and want to start getting other stuff like handbags and accessories. This has been a work in progress for a while. I have so many ideas and not enough time to do them lol.

Check out Mariposa Fashions on Facebook: www.facebook.com/MariposaFashions
Check out my Etsy store: Mariposa Fashions
Mariposa Fashions on Instagram: mariposafashions




October 30, 2013

Why I Love Being Single...


1. I can do what I want, when I want without having to justify or explain anything












2. I can focus on my goals and dreams without any distractions


















3. There is no one in my personal space



















4. I don't have to shave



















5. No commitments to anyone















6. I can party it up with my girls whenever I want to...werk, werk, werk, werk :)
















7. I get the WHOLE bed to myself















8. Things are less complicated when you are single

















9. I can do things that are socially unacceptable and there is no one there to judge


















10. I don't have to worry about texts like these...

























11. I don't have to listen to anyone's bulls**t















When people ask if I get lonely this is how I respond....













And here's my advice to the newly single....






















October 21, 2013

Best Horror Movie Monsters...



Below you will find few of the best and scariest (in my opinion) horror movie monsters...



Pinhead

Movie: Hellraiser




Freddy Krueger

Movie: Nightmare on Elm Street




Worms

Movie: Deep Rising




The Crawlers

Movie: The Descent




Fly

Movie: The Fly




The Pale Man

Movie: Pan's Labyrinth



The Thing

Movie: John Carpenter's The Thing



The Xenomorph

Movie: Alien





I'm sure there are plenty more that could be added to the list but I have thoroughly creeped myself out with these and need to go watch Family Guy lol





October 17, 2013

Kindred Spirits by May Torres

When a crime of passion is committed in a quaint suburban neighborhood, long buried secrets begin to surface. It was an ordinary Thursday night when Grace looked out her window to see her neighbor brutally murder his family. Unfortunately, her special gift, and long buried secrets of her own, conspire to put her at risk. 

If the line between good and bad is drawn in blood, what happens when less than six degrees separates you from pure evil?


Available on October 31, 2013

Pre-order it today at Touche Publishers: May Torres




Interview with May Torres about her new book Kindred Spirits:



What inspired you to write Kindred Spirits?

It's funny. Kindred Spirits was never intended to be a book. I had wanted to write some short stories to post on my blog so readers could get a feel for my writing. I wrote the first story and in the middle of writing the second, I decided to make a connection to the first. The whole thing snowballed from there until I had four separate short stories but connected in some way. Hope you're still with me .  My friend and author, R.C. Berry, liked the stories and asked (demanded) that I continue because it would make for a nice short story compilation book. So I did. I had a good amount of stories completed but had a hard time giving it a title. It was difficult to come up with one because there's not just one specific subject. I finally decided that the word kindred would be a part of the title because it means related. Then I naturally thought of the word that normally follows kindred, which is spirits. It was a fleeting thought but when R.C. Berry suggested kindred spirits, I knew that was the name I'd go with. It's what the book is about in more ways than one 

  





Who is your favorite character? Why?

I like Mael. He's dark, cynical, and misunderstood. It's the typical bad boy attraction that plagues us ladies.  


On a scale of 1-10 (10 being the scariest) how scary is Kindred Spirits?

That's a good question. I struggled so much with wondering if I could classify this book as horror. I love horror, it's my favorite genre to read as well as movies I watch. I don't scare easily. (Let's not get into my butterfly phobia) That's the reason why I find it so difficult to gauge the fear factor. What scares the hell out of most people, I don't find scary at all. But it's safe to say that Kindred Spirits is a solid 7, maybe 8 (As you can see I keep insisting it's not scary, don't trust me lol)  R.C. Berry, who has read it, definitely, without a doubt, says it's horror and that there are, indeed, frightening elements to the story.  


A little birdy told me that Stephen King is your favorite author, how do you think he would like Kindred Spirits?

Yes, I love Mr King! I think he would like it because it takes ordinary people and turns them into monsters, which he's a master of. While there are otherworldly things going on, the heart of these stories involve human emotions from one side of the spectrum, way over to the other. The stories will have you feeling and thinking a certain way at the start, only to find out it wasn't what it appeared to be. I came across this quote, which will appear in the beginning of the book - “Fairly examined, truly understood, No man is wholly bad, nor wholly good.”--Theognis This is basically the theme of Kindred Spirits in a nutshell.


What scares you the most?

Let's get this out of the way, I have an actual phobia of butterflies(and moths). I don't ask anyone to understand it because I don't. They frighten me something awful. The metamorphosis creeps me the hell out. I don't like them being a caterpillar one minute and then a butterfly the next. Go ahead laugh. It's stupid, I know, but they scare me. (tadpoles to frog I don't particularly care for either lol) Anyway, people would be surprised to know that none of the horror movies scare me but disaster movies do. Day After Tomorrow, I Am Legend, even the destruction depicted in the movie Independence Day. I fear some kind of natural disaster wiping everything out. I don't like to see monuments destroyed or any traces of our existence gone.  I got bothered by Will Smith being all alone in I Am Legend, while most people were cringing at those creatures he faced. Yeah, I don't like end of the world stuff.  


What is your favorite horror movie?

You're asking me to choose which child is my favorite 
I'm a huge Michael Meyers fan. I admit to being scared of crazy people more than, let's say, ghosts, demons etc. I know it becomes ridiculous when he can't be killed but I just love him. The first Nightmare on Elm Street is also a favorite. Of course I loved the Exorcist. I loved the Sixth Sense, not sure if it's horror but really love movies with a twist. Most of the times I see the twist coming a mile away but that one got me! Also in the same fashion, I enjoyed The Others with Nicole Kidman. LOVED that scene towards the ending of The Ring. I'm fascinated by anything paranormal.  


What are you going to be for Halloween this year?

I'm afraid I may not have time to come up with a costume this year. Due to getting Kindred Spirits ready for its Halloween release. When I dress up I like to be scary. To hell with all those cutesy or sexy kind of costumes for Halloween. I want to be dark and frightening. This year I would probably have loved to be zombie since I'm on my The Walking Dead kick. I also love being a dark angel/angel of death type character.  The new season of American Horror Story also has me wanting to be a freaky witch.

Reflections...


There is a story they tell of two dogs…


Both at separate times walk into the same room. One comes out wagging his tail while the other comes out growling.

A woman watching this goes into the room to see what could possibly make one dog so happy and the other so mad. To her surprise she finds a room filled with mirrors. The happy dog found a thousand happy dogs looking back at him while the angry dog found a thousand dogs growling back at him.



What you see in the world around you is a reflection of who you are.





October 12, 2013

Interview with Jennifer McDonald, Founder of Jenn's Butterfli Bowtique






Below you will find my interview with female entrepreneur Jennifer McDonald about her shop Jenn's Butterfli Bowtique. 



Tell me about your shop.

My shop features handmade hair accessories, jewelry, toys/games & gift items. There is something for everyone at Jenn's Butterfli Bowtique.



Is everything handmade?

Most everything is handmade.  However, I do have several items that I sell that I have not personally made such as my Boys Faux Silk Ties & my Mustache earrings.

Some of the products offered at Jenn's Butterfli Bowtique
Do you do special orders?

Absolutely. I love custom orders.  Nothing makes me happier than to create something for someone to help them remember something special to them, create new memories or give to someone that is was made especially for them with love.  I can pretty much make anything anyone throws at me.  If I don't currently make it, I'm definitely willing to try to make it.

What's your favorite thing that you make?

Oh gosh !!  I really love everything I make, but I'd have to say that my custom Holiday Bling Bead Bottle Cap Ornaments are my favorite.  I have a lot of images to choose from and people can customize them with personal photos on the back.  I even have some for pets. :)  I have several customers that come back every year to buy them.

When did you open your shop?

November 2010

What motivated you to start your shop?

I entered a bow contest to win a set of pigtail bows for my youngest daughter for Thanksgiving on Facebook and as I was motivating my family members and friends to help me win, I started looking at other bow shops, seeing how pretty the bows were on Facebook and how much they cost.  I knew I could totally make them myself and for a lot less.  I've always been a pretty crafty person.  Then, I thought, why not sell them & other "crafty" stuff on Facebook myself for some extra money.  My hubby was in the Army and I wasn't working and we could use some extra income.  Thus, my shop was born.

Tell me about the name, Jenn's Butterfli Bowtique. How did you come up with it?

Well, I thought about a shop name for a really long time.  I wanted something that was catchy, but that had to do with something I liked.  Everything I came up with at first was taken, so finally I came up with Jenn's Butterfli Bowtique (Jenn - my name, Butterfli - I LOVE butterflies & it was a spelling that I didn't think I'd have to worry about anyone else having & Bowtique because at the time, I was strictly going to be selling bows.

How can people purchase your products?

My website is under construction & hopefully will be up and running soon, but in the mean time, you can shop at www.facebook.com/jennsbutterflibowtique by sending me a message on my fan page or emailing me at jenns_butterfli_bowtique@yahoo.com.




Interview with Paranormal Investigator Matt Cline


Paranormal investigation is something that has always been interesting to me. I love watching the investigations on TV but had never actually met a real Paranormal Investigator until last December. After meeting Matt, I started keeping up with the investigations that he goes on. To learn more about the paranormal group and the investigation process, I decided to interview Matt. Check out the in depth interview below. 



What paranormal group are you with?

I'm with Appalachee Paranormal.

Tell me a little about Appalachee Paranormal.


We are based out of Princeton, WV. We have been featured on Travel Channel's Paranormal Challenge with Zak Bagans TV show, have done countless investigations in West Virginia, Virginia, and surrounding areas. We also have hosted many public paranormal events, ranging from public discussions, presentations, and full scale public investigations.

What kind of equipment does the group use?

We use a wide variety of paranormal equipment. We have several various forms of EMF detectors, REM type devices, digital recorders, spirit boxes, temperature sensors, etc. We use a lot of experimental equipment from Digital Dowsing. We also have infrared and full spectrum video cameras and photo cameras. We have an 8-channel DVR camera system. We enjoy trying a wide variety of techniques and experiments with lots of different equipment.

How long does an investigation usually last?

It depends on the location. Some spots want you out by a certain time and things of that nature. But I would say that we typically investigate a location 4-6 hours. Some more, some less.

How is an investigation conducted?

We like to start by touring the location. This gives us a chance to map out the location and often the owner will walk you through and give you history or experiences for particular spots. From there, we will do an EMF sweep of the entire location. This allows us to rule out any natural energy spots in the location. From there, it depends on the location. Typically, there are four of us on an investigation. Most places at this point we will break off into teams of two, switching partners and equipment throughout the night. If it's a larger location we will often stay together, at least for a period of time. During an investigation we use every technique possible to try to attempt to communicate.

What are some of the most active cases you have encountered?

There is a Catholic Church from the 1800's near us here in Princeton. It is truly the most active place we have ever been. We have done large, famous locations such as Trans Allegeheny Lunatic Asylum and Moundsville State Penitentiary, and those were great, but they don't compare in activity to this church. There are tons of questions to the reasoning of why this church may hold such activity that may never be fully answered, but it's a spot we can't stay away from because of the intense activity and mystery.

Do you have any examples of paranormal activity that you can share?

I will share a link of an investigation that we did in Bluefield, WV. We made a sort of webisode out of it and it contains several interesting incidences.




Also, you can search Appalachee Paranormal on YouTube and find most of our other online videos. Also check our website for evidence links.

What is the scariest situation that you have had while on an investigation?

The scariest situation for me, personally, was at the church I spoke of earlier. This was a personal experience that could never truly be understood or documented, but it was so intense for me that I know something truly happened. I was sitting in the 2nd row of pews on the left side of the curch. It's completely pitch black dark in here. Suddenly, I see something that appears to be darker than the darkness inside of the building slithering toward me. As it seemed to get closer it appeared to be, as I for some reason called it thereafter, a serpent. I literally started freaking out and jumped up to where I was standing on the pew to get off of the floor. Then, I looked back down where it had been and absolutely nothing was there. As I said, it's hard to even understand that. It honestly is for me too. But at the same time, I know what I experienced and how frightening it truly was.

What got you interested in the paranormal?

I had always had at least somewhat of an interest in it. As a child, just through folk lore, stories, and horror movies. Then I got asked to go on an investigation by Jack Wade, another member of our team. I went with him and the team he was on at that time and absolutely fell in love. From there, myself, Jack, Jeff Griffith, and Tony Riffe formed Appalachee Paranormal and have been going strong since.

Where is one place, that you haven't investigated, that you would most like to?

The place I would most like to investigate that I haven't would probably be Gettysburg. The battlefields, the buildings, the whole works. I'm kind of a history buff and the tragic past from there is unbelievable.

How can readers connect with Appalachee Paranormal?

Twitter: @ap_paranormal
Email: appalacheeparanormal@gmail.com

You can find me personally at

Email: blueturtlegrass@gmail.com

We are available for investigations, appearances, and events.




October 9, 2013

My Top 10 Scariest Movies....





Anyone that knows me knows that I'm a big chickens**t. I really don't do scary movies AT ALL. But out of all the ones that I have seen, here are my top 10 scariest ones.

10. Fire in the Sky

There's something about alien abduction movies that really creeps me out. 



9. Blair Witch Project

Am I the only one that thought this was real when it came out?



8. It

If you aren't creeped out by clowns, you should be.



7. The Shining

This is a classic. 



6. The Mothman Prophecies

Seeing a strange creature with red eyes then something bad happens...yeah that's not scary at all. And not to mention that people actually see this thing in real life. 



5. The Exorcist

This movie oozes creepiness. I mean her head spins all the way around and stuff.



4. Halloween

You can't have a scary movie list without the classic Halloween movie. 



3. Saw

I have only seen the first Saw movie. I refuse to watch the others.



2. Nightmare on Elm Street

If you read the post "Random Facts About Me" then you already know that I just can't handle Freddy. I think it's the whole killing people in their dreams thing that really gets me. If I watch this, I won't sleep for a week lol.



1. Paranormal Activity

This by far is the scariest movie for me. I watched it during the day and still jumped out of my skin! The way it's taped made it even worse. It's like we are really watching this happen to these people. I just can't handle the demonic hauntings.